He was once the boy every magazine wanted on its cover — a smiling face that filled American living rooms through the 1980s. But behind the fame and perfect image was a young actor quietly struggling with identity, pressure, and purpose.
Before he could even drive a car, he was working full-time in Hollywood, jumping from one hit show to the next. The world saw a confident young idol. Inside, he was just a kid who wanted to know who he really was.
A childhood on set
This former adorable child actor, born in 1974, landed his first role at just eight years old, portraying an autistic boy in St. Elsewhere. To help him prepare, his mother explained that children with autism often live in worlds of their own.
“And I understood that. I would sit there and have this whole world going on in my head. I’d be following the patterns on the wall, and in my head there was an imaginary war going on between the shapes,” he once reflected.He also made a guest appearance in an early episode of Airwolf, earning a nomination for ”Best Young Actor: Guest in a Series.”
Soon, he was everywhere starring in family dramas like Our House and My Two Dads, learning lines instead of math homework, and growing up under the lights.
“I played pretend, and I was good at playing pretend… and all of a sudden people were making a lot of money, and I didn’t want to do it anymore,” he recalled years later.The teenage heartthrob loved acting but felt trapped by the world it created. Normal childhood moments — playgrounds, friends, school dances — were replaced with studios, scripts, and interviews.
Breaking the mold
By his mid-teens, fame was shaping every part of his identity. Publicists curated his image. Photo shoots and press junkets polished it further.The boy America adored was suddenly a brand. Soon, he began to wonder who he really was behind the glossy covers.
“He was very well put together, and I wanted to get to know him,” he once said of his public persona.
At 16, he made a bold choice: he walked away from Hollywood to live a normal teenage life.
He enrolled in high school, joined the drama club, mostly “because it was for the rejects, the gay kids, very uncool”.
“I discovered that I liked the world of the theater, which was so different from the world of the teen star.”
Addiction took over
Raised in a devout Catholic home, he grew up with discipline and devotion. But as fame and adulthood collided, addiction soon took over.
“At the end of the day, I was alone, and I couldn’t stop drinking…
In the end, things spiraled so far out of control that he found himself sitting alone in his Malibu condo, completely isolated and teetering on the edge of death.
A close friend, actress Heather Tom, finally walked away. That was a painful wake-up call that forced him to choose between destruction and redemption.
He entered recovery and found that helping others was not just healing, it was transformative.
But 21, while starring in Dr. Quinn, his world came crashing down.
Outed, exposed, and reborn
In 1996, a U.S. tabloid published photos of him kissing another man in a hot tub at a party. The images were sold by someone claiming to be a friend of the couple and splashed across pages, paired with fabricated rumors.
“So I was scared. Just scared,” he said.
He didn’t want to lie, nor did he want to become anyone’s headline.
”There were certainly plenty of people in my life who didn’t know I was gay, because they never cared to ask or weren’t close enough to me, but there were plenty of people who already knew,” he said.
Lawyers, managers, and executives debated how to “handle” him. But he refused to play along. The cast of Dr. Quinn was supportive, and he stayed on the family-friendly show, but once the series wrapped up, “it was tough.”
“My dad couldn’t look me in the eye. And that hurt. Because a boy always wants his dad’s acceptance. And I knew I’d been lying to them”, the actor shared.
His mother, unsure how to react, began to cry and said she had always assumed he was too cute not to have a girlfriend.
The fallout was painful, but something unexpected happened. Letters started pouring in from young gay men across the country, thanking him for being visible.
For the first time, he wrote back, by hand.
”It helped me, actually, all this pressure I was getting to identify myself, identify myself. It just meant so much to know I wasn’t going through it alone either. After all, what is it [loving men]? There’s so much attached to it, but at the end of the day, it’s love. I’ll take it. Whatever it looks like,” he explained.
Unfortunately, the gay revelation had harsh consequences for the actor, who was in the middle of his career.
”I couldn’t get an audition for a pilot after that,” he shared in 2008.
From actor to psychologist
After decades of fame, addiction, and personal battles, he finally stepped away from Hollywood in 2015. Not in defeat, but in transformation.
He went back to school, earned a Doctorate in Clinical Psychology, and opened his own private practice.
Today, he helps others navigate trauma, identity, and healing, the very struggles he once faced himself.
He named his practice Confluence Psychotherapy, a symbol, he says, of two rivers meeting to form something stronger.
“My greatest hope is that when we die, we get to experience God and let go of all judgments and preconceived notions… Anything that comes with fear or judgment, it can’t be of God.”
Now, his days are spent counseling patients, walking his dog, and exploring nature — far from the noise of red carpets and cameras. He has also become an advocate for the LGBT community and has expressed gratitude to Gavin Newsom for his efforts to legalize same-sex marriage in San Francisco.
The boy who once appeared on every magazine cover grew into a man who chose meaning over fame, truth over image, and healing over applause.
His name? Chad Allen — former teen idol, now a doctor helping others find peace.
Best wishes and best of luck always, Chad! You are a truly class act, and your presence on screen is missed – but we’re glad that you have found a calling in your life that will help others!
